I've ever told that something happened and yet it changed the whole life of mine. And... Yeah, it started with somebody. But, in processed of adaptations with new life and kind of new presence,there's a thing being a burden in my mind. Was it a tumour? Or kind of blood spilled out from you vein on your top caused of over thinking and depression? No. It something like revenge. Yeah, it's revenge.
It just my mouth saying it but in deep of my heart, it's different. It's not I wont forgive the person for the rest of my life. It just takes time to heal. Maybe weeks,months,years or for the rest of my life..
Well, the best revenge is to move on. Looking forward for new life and creating new memories with new people. Mom even said so to me. Well she also a bit disappointed with that person too for KINDLY hurt her daughter but not as much as mine. As we figured it out, we still have to deal with it. Just accept the fate and miracle would happen soon.
"And let not those among you who are blessed with graces and wealth swear not to give [any sort of help] to their kinsmen, Al-Masakin [the poor] and those who left their homes for Allah's Cause. Let them pardon and forgive. Do you not love that Allah should forgive you? And Allah is Oft-Forgiving,Most Merciful." (QS An-Nuur 24:22)
"Janganlah orang-orang yg mempunyai kelebihan dan kelapangan di antara kamu bersumpah bahawa mereka tidak akan memberi [bantuan] kepada kaum kerabat[nya], orang-orang yg miskin dan orang-orang yg berhijrah di jalan Allah. Hendaklah mereka memaafkan dan berlapang dada. Apakah kamu tidak ingin agar Allah mengampunimu?? Sesungguhnya Allah adalah Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang." (QS An-Nuur 24:22)
Give some reflection to myself. Don't you want Allah to forgive you? If you don't, then just let it be. Let the grudge lead you and finally it gonna kill yourself,your life and people you love too. So,here are the tips. Make yourself clean with it. Don't make the anger as your leader, or else, you gonna regret for the whole of your life . Forgive but it is not as that easy to forget. Make it as a lesson and the lessons help you to think wisely before you proceed with your actions. Don't fill your life with something that won't worth you as life is short. Enjoy it.